First there is no real purpose of this site. It is a sandbox and test bed for a variety of self-serving analytics. I have the ability to alter content and publish at will and review the results. Having always had a penchant for logfiles and a girl geek since age 9, you could consider this psychoanalytics of the Web if you truly need solid definition. Now, if you'd like, read on about some of my views on Life in General and Life Purposes.
It really hit home when I review Lessons that present themselves to me in the form of challenges. Things happen -- both good and bad and somewhere in between, things balance out. That is still my purpose. I'm a Muse and a part of Karma. I make the truth be known. It is much easier to lead a purpose-driven life without lies and deceit because there aren't stories to make up or colorful concoctions to recall. I choose battles wisely and I bring forth the heinous inequities that another has imposed on everyone around. But, this task is not as daunting as one would seem. Because there is very little action or effort for me to put forth because I am grounded, shielded and well-protected. There is nothing that I fear. Nothing that rattles me. I am back in my element... and I am my very own Force of Nature.
Sometimes it is so easy for me to see straight through people and their motives and hidden agendas. Human nature is all so very predictable. It is merely understanding your role in another's path; when it runs afoul, if so, it is not difficult at all to simply let go. There are Givers and Takers in this cycle we call Life. I do not fall into the Taker category. I give. I also do not lay any heavy reciprocation demands. After all, that would not be giving freely. But, in certain instances, there were several undeserving. Advantageous. They lacked everything that I had. They wanted. Greed drove them. Lies, deceit, rumors, games, manipulation.
My purpose? Easy. Exist in harmony with those who are deserving and to not cause harm to others or self. When challenged or targeted, I adapt. I do not ever conform. Call it a mutable trait if you want, but it is genuine. Wiccans understand this fully and call it shapeshifting. I remain fully connected to my essence, my core, my inner base. Some have told me how profound this Essence is, when in balance. You will not find me to be dull or lackluster. I am capable of self-preservation and sufficiency. There is very little I need and there is nothing truly that I want. I do not gain in this world by taking from others. It's the Lessons that hopefully they are left with when our paths are parted. Some simply never learn. Not a damned thing. And, if they're lucky, the next trip around, they get it right.
I'm Happy. Yes. I've figured out a lot of things over the course of time. I have had the BEST birthdays in a long time and I owe that purely to Mr. White. I have definition... direction... and finally, most importantly, peace of mind. By definition, I can calmly state those behaviors that are intolerable and unacceptable in interpersonal relationships. Friendships are supposed to foster growth and to encourage each of us to be our very best. Friendships should not be formed "with strings".
After I cleared out the toxic people in my life, all drama left as I knew I there would be very little of my own. Remember, you choose to participate in someone else's drama. Life doesn't have to be so complicated. It's fabulous to be a supportive friend, but don't take on more than you can handle.
I've learned that some people are constitutionally incapable of keeping promises. I've also learned not to sacrifice my needs in place of those who are truly unworthy. Proceeding with caution is a great starting point. For instance, looking at an inviting pool of water to swim in may for appearances sake seem harmless. It's all surface. But what you can't see... can indeed hurt you. Is the temperature safe? Are the chemicals present and balanced? Look before you dive in head first. Don't give away pieces of yourself that you cannot possibly retrieve.
I remain the very same today as I have been all of my life. Black and White. Little gray area. If you fail certain moral tests, you have no place in my life. I do not surround myself with those who lack caliber, conscience, morals, merit. I provide balance in situations where possible. I look deep within you. Stare into your soul. Determine if you are worthy. Rarely mistake my instincts and intuition. When they fail me, I will stop relying on these tools. But they, still to this day, have been dead-level accurate. Merely don't insult my intelligence. Trying to circumvent that through deceit, lies and whatever ill-will you choose to impose. I'll find out. I always do.
I welcome your comments....